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May. 17th, 2013 @ 02:45 pm The Car Ride Unto Death
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The History Of The Future


This getaway car is full of cops
and I think they know I know.
I didn't always want to be
the thing I want to be now.

Looking back, the epochs in my life
have always been marked
less by what was there outside my head
and more by what dream struck me at the time.

(Such is the history of the future.)
Somewhere somebody's on the beach.
There's a pier and mist and salt air
and they're taking a picture.

But back to the cops
and the getaway car:
There's nothing to do but bide my time.
There's a sort of chess to this.

(It's been easier since I quit drugs
to sit inside traps and not look embarrassed.)

If God wanted me dead,
he'd have killed me by now.
As I watch his creation go by outside
and go on inside.

Thank you, God, for showing me
how close it was
all along:
the adventure of life.




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Apr. 16th, 2013 @ 09:01 pm A Fat, Dead Genius
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The Saving Of Thomas Aquinas


The 13th century happened once
in Paris, when Thomas Aquinas
was sitting around.

Université de Paris was new,
with its spires and towers
and tall walls of stone.

There were old books all around.
(They're even older now.)
Tom didn't care for ascending stairs.

(He preferred the belfry of his mind.)
Thinking of him now, I think of God,
that God's a poet,

whose metaphors occur in real life.
I think of the fame of the everyday man,
because he's viewed by God.

(It's like an infinite Nielsen rating.)
I think of us creative types,
that we're all of us priests,

of some religion
(either of Jesus Christ,
or else of The Church Of Ourselves).

So there is Tom,
in the year before he died,
watching the sun come up at dawn,

through a stained-glass window.
Then something occurs
that a doctor might call a stroke.

But it's not a stroke: not that kind of stroke.
No, Thomas Aquinas saw the light;
He said, "I through with writing books."




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Apr. 7th, 2013 @ 08:19 pm Indiana Jones
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Withdrawal


It's itching on the underside
of the skin.
It's an angry nostalgia.

It's a helpless dryness
in the mouth.
It's drowning in water.

It's drowning in sand.
It's endless, voiceless
screaming.




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Apr. 3rd, 2013 @ 10:44 am The Eighty-Year Itch
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Television Interview
Below A Marquee Sign



"What's she got
that most ladies don't,
but they just don't show?"

said a lady
in the fifties
about Marilyn Monroe.




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Mar. 4th, 2013 @ 02:29 pm Water In The Boat Of Denial
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the truth


the truth is
a handsome blond woman
with smudges on her face
and scrapes on her elbows
as she unties herself
from coarse yellow rope
binding her wrists

while she and I duck down
behind crates in a warehouse
as beams from flashlights
flip around and toward us
held by her kidnappers
that pierce the dark before us
and I whisper to her
please. stop talking.
you're going to get me killed
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Feb. 4th, 2013 @ 02:34 pm (no subject)
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Mud In My Eyes


I dragged that lady
through the mud
with my eyes.

I am not her husband.
And she is not my wife.

I dragged that lady
through the mud, with my eyes.

I walked in on her
in the bath
with my eyes.

I am not a child.
And she is not a child.

I walked in on her
in the bath, with my eyes.

I dragged her through the mud.
The mud got in my eyes.
I am not her husband.

And I am not a child.
I dragged that lady
through the mud, with my eyes.




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Jan. 12th, 2013 @ 06:16 pm Gun Powder In The Nose
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The War


Two soldiers from
opposing countries
lied on their backs
in a used-up field.

They were both
bloodied and broken.
Their lungs were giving out.

"Who won?,"
the first guy asked,
with dying breath.

"You didn't win,
and we didn't win,"

The other guy said
looking toward the sky
unable to turn his neck.

"The war won."
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Jan. 9th, 2013 @ 10:00 am Somewhere A Poet Waits For A Bus
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Loneliness


Loneliness
is held in the torso.
It is a hollow churning,
above the stomach,
below the heart.

It announces itself
in pangs.
The pangs are attached
to the eyebrows
which draw together
across the nose bridge
creating wrinkles.

Pang, wrinkle.
Pang, wrinkle.

And I stand on my beachhead
made of melting snow.
I: a piece of electrical equipment.
My loneliness: the On light.




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Sep. 27th, 2012 @ 08:54 am Talking To Myself Again
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The Atheist The I Used To Be


The atheist that I used to be
was a wet-eyed sort of hero.
He was always
hungover and gazing at stars.

And every little leaving thing
broke his heart in a homesick way.
The details in life's far-flung cities
felt like quirks in a goodbye letter.

He thought that women were God.
You know, the young ones.
He wanted to marry them
and die in their arms.

(He wanted to marry
and die in the arms of each of them
until he got through however many
millions of them there are.)

The atheist that I used to be
would go to bars and drink
where there are bottles between him
and the mirror.

He'd wish for some
strange woman
to take him home and let him in
to some strange inner somewhere

where he'd never been
which had an otherness
in the culture
of its decorations.

(For an atheist
this
is going
to church.)

A photograph would blow his mind
not because it was a photograph
but because the past was everywhere
and growing.

The past, that creeping thing.
His was an unsustainable economy.
Someday the past
would have his all.

And every little leaving thing
broke his heart in a homesick way.
The details in life's far-flung cities
felt like quirks in a goodbye letter.

If I could speak to him now
to the atheist that I used to be
(and I can; he's down in me still)
I'd tell him,

all about Jesus Christ,
who died for us, so we can live
and go the Heaven, if we believe.
But the very first thing that I'd say,

would be, Brother, listen,
look: put down the drink;
you drink too much;
don't drink at all.

It's not that goodness and life
are dying things;
It's you that are a dead thing,
and in a dying world.




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Sep. 23rd, 2012 @ 07:37 pm Based On A True Story
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Like Day For Night


There was something, last night,
I forgot to say.
Then the moon came out,
in the middle of the day.

It's time to pray,
when God's about.
In the middle of the day,
the moon came out.

A hiccup in nature,
can switch up the route.
In the middle of the day,
the moon came out.

Last night's hiccup
foretells tonight's pain.
The moon was out.
It was the middle of the day.




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